Iona Winter

I’m sorry dear blog, but I’ve done it again. I’ve left you alone while twiddling my thumbs and avoiding writing. I realise ONCE AGAIN that it was a mistake. Sorry.

There are numerous books I could read on the ‘craft’ of writing, and believe me there are several located in the vicinity of my desk. BUT I don’t read them. When I brought them I thought it would be a good idea. But I haven’t read them. Perhaps I should. They might help, or give me a focus, or something.

There seem to be plenty of rules with writing. Conversely, there are plenty of people who say, “Bugger the rules and write what you want!” These comments sound freeing don’t they? Rebellious even, which appeals to my internalised adolescent punk-self.

BUT it’s become very confusing. I can’t be ‘too out there’ with ‘The Novel’, because the damn thing might never be published. Let alone completed as my thesis! Examiners will read it, before it even gets within spitting distance of a publisher. The simple truth is, that I have to conform (in some ways), otherwise I won’t pass.

Trust me, I could provide ample rationale for why I’ve chosen to write in an ‘out there’ way. BUT do I really want to waste valuable time providing justifications? Or should I just GET ON WITH IT and stop procrastinating AGAIN?

I’ve applied for several grants, to help with the depleted finances. I’ve been unsuccessful. Do I sink into the mire of self-deprecation and start to believe my writing is crap? Or do I rise above and continue with what I’ve started (aka FINISH the bloody thing)?

This morning, with my windows crying in condensation-sympathy, I realise the only option available is to ‘get on with it’ and write. NOT STOPPING will be my challenge.

I’m eliminating potential threats…I’ve taken myself off Twitter (don’t get me started on the bane of social media) and excused myself on Facebook. I’m limiting my distractions (difficult to get rid of the stove however) and simplifying my means of communication.

And so, I leap off the edge of Point Procrastination and prepare myself to hide away and continue writing…